I pulled this post from a private blog I previously wrote. I felt that this illustrates a big moment in my life, my ideals, and an incredible experience. This is also where the photo in mu banner came from. Attached to this post, is the original photo, before being cropped down.
TITLE: “I fell in love at Langer Lake”
I could seriously cry just thinking about the majestic adventure that I got to experience. The universe is bringing me such amazing things and I will never understand what I did to deserve it all, but instead of questioning it, I guess I’ll just thank my lucky stars.
Let’s start from the top shall we?
We got a late start (which looking back now, was probably the best decision we could have made). We loaded the roof of Kaitlin’s car and hit the road towards Stanley, Idaho. The drive alone was more beautiful than I even remembered, but terrifying because Kaitlin drives far too much like I do- non observant, fast, and herky-jerky. The most reoccurring phrase that comes from that drive was “but did you die?” I feel that speaks for itself. We lived to tell the story, and made it to our spot. It was dark by then, so we loaded up our gear to backpack in. The only thing that lit our way was a couple of head lamps and an unlimited supply of glow sticks. I had no idea what we were getting into. Cody was the only veteran attendee. Cody and I each brought one backpack, he took the Camelback, and I strapped the sleeping bag on my stuff. We kept it pretty simple, and I still realize now that I over packed. Jesse on the other hand… will never live down the fact that he somehow strapped on three backpacks, several grocery bags, and misc. other things to himself. He never once complained and still kept up better than I could, but I think he learned his lesson too.
The hike in was long, nearly all uphill, and though it was freezing cold, I was pouring sweat. There were a few complaints, but I got the most amazing endorphin rush. We finally made it at about midnight. As soon as we got there, our first priority was getting a fire started, because now that we had slowed down, it was freezing and our sweat was now turning into icicles rapidly. Next plan of action, was setting up our tents. I was lucky enough to have the mountain man. Cody pointed out some branches and told me to look for the fullest ones. I looked at him kind of puzzled, but I complied. Once we both had arm fulls, we took them over to the flat spot where were going to place our tent and he started layering them meticulously in the shape of the floor of our tent. He told me that they were for cushion and insulation, so we wouldn’t lose our heat to the ground. My immediate thought: “holy shit, I picked a winner!” I felt like a little kid, because every time I found a good section of branches, I got all excited to get the camping expert’s approval. He was sweet and acted like I was doing some brilliant shit. Good boyfriend award, for sure. We got our tent set up, ate s’mores, and just inhaled all the mountain air that my lungs desired. I could already feel the amazing vibes.
We went to bed and realized that Cody and I only brought one sleeping bag. Whoops. Luckily, we were already accustomed to sleeping rather close, just zipping up the sleeping bag made me super claustrophobic. Luckily, the mountain man had another trick up his sleeve to keep us warm (yeah, I know what you’re thinking- but you’re wrong!). He grabbed one of the rocks that lined the fire, and put it in the bottom of our sleeping bag by our feet. We were warm for most of the night and I got to snuggle with my sweetie all night long in the dead quiet of the wilderness. HOW DOES IT GET BETTER?! Just wait!
The next morning, Cody got up first while I snuggled down in our sleeping bag to keep warm for a little longer. He was sweet and built a fire, so I wouldn’t immediately freeze my ass off. Mountain man definitely took one for the team there. When I finally rustled out of the tent, I was greeted with the most amazing view I think I have ever experienced. Since it was the dead of night when we hiked in, I had no idea what to expect. The first sight I saw as I exited our tent was the clearest lake water I had ever seen surrounded by gorgeous pine trees and majestic mountains. It was breathtaking. I can honestly say that I have seen some amazing things, but none of them have stunned me the way that this view had. It was an incredible surprise that even a birthday couldn’t top!
We made Bacon for breakfast, and Cody had an MRE that he accidentally made incorrectly, but then saved the day and ended up repairing it to edible quality. I got my coffee fix and ate some dry cereal which Adventure Guide Cody proceeded to lecture me about, because he was taking us on killer hike in which “empty carbs and sugar would quickly burn off and leave me starving before afternoon.” My instinct was to argue, but I knew he was right. I ate some bacon, and packed the granola bars in our day pack. I took a little walk by myself around part of the lake and found this cool rock that I desperately wanted to climb. I hadn’t told anyone where I was going and I heard Kaitlin calling my name, so I turned back and went towards the group. We all got ready to go on our day trip. We walked on the trail around Langer lake to the rock I wanted to climb. We all climbed up, took a few pictures, then discussed our next move. Originally, we were going to hike up to the lookout. There’s basically a building at the top for fire fighters in the summer, and during the winter, people can snow mobile up there and rent it. We ended up deciding to hike to another very tall point that Cody had previously hiked, so we knew what to expect. We hiked around and were dazzled by yet another lake. Kaitlin did some fishing, we saw some other fisherman (which happened to be the only other humans we had seen thus far). We ventured to another lake which had the most beautiful water I have ever seen in my life. It reminded me of the ocean water I had seen in the Caribbean, but a fresh water lake. I have since realized that the reason the water is so immaculate is due to the fact that the only way to get in there is on foot or horse back. No motor vehicles are permitted, and no boat has ever ran through that water. It’s amazing and uninhabited. From that lake, we had to head straight up. That’s no exaggeration either. the side of the mountain was nearly perpendicular to the ground. You had to tilt your head way back just to view the highest point. I looked at Cody like “um, there is NO way I’m going to live through this.” I wasn’t about to say that out loud or go out without trying, but I definitely had one of those “hard swallow” moments where I gulped deep in the back of my throat. There were a couple of doubters in the group who didn’t think we would be able to do it, let alone make it back before night fall. Thankfully, we had my encouraging adventure guide to reassure this that we were being a bunch of pussy’s and we would be fine. I am SO thankful that we didn’t back out. We started up the mountain, I was quickly out of breath, because apparently I need more cardio in my life. The only one of us who was able to actively keep up with Cody was the god damn dog. 97% of me admired his strength and stamina, but the other 3% completely envied it. He was courteous though. He let us stop occasionally to catch our breath. I was again, sweating up a storm in freezing temperatures. I was hiking in 45 degree weather in a light shirt. I had even packed my vest away in my back pack. We entertained ourselves along the way by tossing rocks down from how far we had made it and watching them tumble into oblivion. Cody kept saying “just wait until we make it to the top, we will get to EXPLODE rocks. There’s a place to launch them! It’s AWESOME!” He wasn’t kidding. We finally made it to the top. We had stunning views of all the lakes that we had seen throughout the day, we could literally see for miles. We could see mountain ranges that had skiffs of snow. It was incredible. We all took adorable stereotypical couple photos, and dangled our feet off the edge of the universe. Then, we got to the best part, the part that Cody had been talking about all day- ROCK EXPLODING. We started out with smaller rocks, and watched them literally explode in just a couple of tumbles. Then Jesse and Cody grabbed boulders that took the both of them to maneuver and sent them tumbling off the edge. They made these insanely loud explosion noises and rolled on forever, getting smaller and smaller the further they plummeted. It sounds childish, but it was actually pretty fucking badass and made me realize how insignificant we were in size to what was surrounding us.
On top of that mountain, I seriously feel like I had a spiritual awakening. I felt so centered and accomplished and it’s something that I have never experienced before. I never would have thought that I could do something like that, and my amazing boyfriend saw that I could and pushed me to be the best that I could be and I don’t even think I could begin to thank him enough for that. I feel like when I tossed those rocks off the side of the cliff, I was letting go of negativity that I had been holding onto and symbolically just completing this transformation that I have been working at for months now. In that moment, I hit the peak of my existence, on the peak of a mountain, on a spiritual peak. I wish that every single person could feel the way that I felt in that moment, and still feel the residual affects of. It is absolutely the ultimate zen. I don’t think that it was an accident that I experienced those things with Cody. From day one of meeting him, I felt something that is not only the scariest, but the most “right” thing I have ever felt in my life. That could mean a number of things that are completely unknown to me, but one thing I am certain of, is that everything happens for a reason, and he was placed in my life for a definite purpose. Nothing but incredible things have happened since the moment he entered stage right and this adventure just confirmed it all.
We spent quite a bit of time on the top of that peak. I don’t think any of us were eager to leave. We all had this aura about us. The unfortunate thing about time though, is that even when it seemingly stands still for us, it truthfully keeps on going, so we needed to leave in time to be back before dark. My handsome adventure guide made the executive decision to go down via rock sliding, which was fun, but SO SCARY. You had to basically sit on your back foot, then stretch your other leg out and let that foot kind of guide your way. We all literally slid down the side of the cliff in no time. I’m pretty sure I have a permanent blister from doing so, but I’ll take it as a token to remember the trip by. Not that I would be forgetting any time soon.
We made it back with time to spare. We were all tired, but I still had an adrenaline rush going from all the natural dopamine pumping through my body. We were starving though, so we cooked up a bunch of random and delicious food. The birth of the “crunch wrap s’more” came about- credit to Cody, and we enjoyed our last night in paradise. I’m pretty sure we were all in our tents by ten o’clock. I was so content with snuggling up with my honey and sleeping off the day. I was warm and happy and fulfilled.
Morning came, and I really didn’t want to leave. If it were an option, I would have opted for Cody and I to just live in that damn tent. I would have been fine, warming up rocks fireside for heat, smelling that fresh air, and spending all my time with him forever. I really feel like our souls just connected and my feelings for him grew exponentially. It scares me, but in the best way possible.
The hike back was much different and seemed to be a lot quicker! We got to see all the scenery we missed on the way in, it was all down hill, and we all had a closer bond than we had before.
I will forever be grateful for this adventure and for the three people and a dog I got to share it all with. It was the true definition to “getting away from it all”. It was my first backpacking adventure, Cody and I’s first vacation together, and where I can honestly say I fell in love. I fell in love with life, Langer Lake, and my spectacular adventure guide.